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Monday, March 17, 2014

Remember Me?

REMEMBER ME? I use to be a full time blogger. Every day I enjoyed reading your post and sometimes writing a few of my own. What happened you have asked me in emails and letters.

Wish I could say that I have been traveling and seeing this great country of ours but if I am to be honest with myself and you I would have to say Depression set in with a capital D! 

Like Tinkerbell in these pictures I have slept and hid most of the winter. 
Sometimes just having a pity party all by myself. 

Other times I let my friends join in and we all slept.

It is warming up and I am feeling better every day.

Don't understand how I let myself be so depressed these past few months. I knew that
I did not want to wallow in my pain and make you worry so I just kept to myself. 

I have thought about going to my doctor and I will if getting outside and mowing doesn't bring me
back to a happy place.

I hate feeling like this because I know God has Blessed me in so many ways but then the winter blues took over and I could not snap out of it. Since it was colder in my house than outside I was forced to hibernate in my bedroom. This led to me thinking too much and that led to pity party's. 

I think I finally realized I am not living the life I want and that quite possibly I will grow old all alone. Thank
God I have my children and grand children but they have their own lives.

Blogging has always brought me so much joy but since I felt so down I did not want to bring you down with me. 
I do feel better now! I am outside more and yes mowing again. Please don't ever let me complain about the hot temps and mowing ever again.
I wanted to share this picture with you. It is the desert table at my brother Gary's Birthday party.
Look how Sherry displayed the cake stands on pieces of wood. Don't you love this idea?

On the end of the table she had a big black bear with balloons tied to his arm with 
Gary's Birthday Card.

Look at the table how pretty she had it set for us.

Gary has finished his chemo and radiation! Praise God he is doing really well after all his treatments.
God is so Good.

Have you seen the movie Son of God? A must see movie for adults. I cried so hard during the movie I thought I was going to have to get up and leave. 

We have gotten a lot of rain here so everything is turning green again. Sorry for all of you still getting the snow and colder temps. I think of you and wonder why I feel so blue. 

Now while I am having luck with my computer I will try my best to come by your place and say hello.

Sweet Dreams
Love to All



gpc said...

It's good to have you back. There is no shame in having a pity party from time to time but good for you for moving past it. :) So happy to hear of your brother's progress, and what a wonderful and lovely birthday celebration!

Starting Over, Accepting Changes - Maybe said...

Depression takes so much out of us and it is good that you have fought through it and are seeing the sunshine outside. Better days are ahead.

Debby said...

Oh I wish that you would have come to us for support. I bet you would be surprised how many of us suffer from depression. Me included. I have been wondering where you were.
So glad to hear about Gary. What a great party. God is good.
How are your kids and grands doing.
I'm sorry that your house was so cold. That had to be bad. It has been a cold winter. I bought a portable fireplace heater that we have used a lot to help with the furnace. I am ready for warmer weather......not hot but warmer.
Are you thinking of making changes.
Please do see a doctor if you continue to feel down.
I care about you my friend.

Gorges Smythe said...

Glad you're perking up a little. Maybe spring will help; it will be here very soon. Neat old pickup in the photo. Hope we start hearing more from you soon, Maggie: I get a little concerned when we don't.

Welcome to the Garden of Egan said...

I have missed you.
Sorry you have struggled. You certainly don't have to do it alone.
Hopefully the warmth and sun will warm you up from the inside.

Love that Gary had another birthday. What a miracle he is.

Hugs and loves my friend.

acorn hollow said...

So glad you are back it has been a very long winter. and it keeps hanging on here we are gong below zero again tonight ugh. But spring will come and so glad to see you getting back to your old self.

Julia said...

Oh Maggie, it's so very good to hear from you and yes, I've been worried about you. I also know that the cold winter has been really out of sort this year and has been hard for a lot of people.
I'm so glad that you're starting to feel like living again.

I'll be emailing you tomorrow. Right now it's past my bedtime and I need some sleep.

Thanks for the visit and the comment.

You know that you can email me anytime as I check my emails every time I go into the office.

Take care and sweet dreams.
Big hugs sweet friend.

Shirley said...

Hi Maggie, I am glad to see you back. I am so happy about Gary and you know there is a wedding in October. The time will start flying and you wonder just where it has gone. It is already the middle of March. 70's on Saturday and then back in the 30's on Sunday, It is unreal. If you need to talk, there is plenty of us out there that are willing to listen. Take care. Hugs and Prayers from Your Missouri Friend.

Olga said...

Oh, Maggie, I am so sorry that you have been depressed. It is a painful condition. Sunshine and fresh air will help, but if you need to, please do follow up with your doctor. Take care of yourself. You have been missed.

yaya said...

Welcome back..just in time for Spring Maggie! It's been a super hard winter this year for so many. I hope you are truly feeling better and the temps stay nice. We had sun today but still pretty cold. I know warmer days are ahead...Be safe and I'm so glad your brother is doing well. Blog again soon!

Donna said...

I certainly understand.....there's a bit of that in me too. I haven't blogged like I used to for many personal, health and family reasons. Life is hard sometimes and sharing is hard. Hopefully you connected with a friend in person. I wish I could have come to the Lone star state to visit over a few cups of tea.
Praying things get better....we could all use a good dose of your fabulous humor!!! Hugs, D

Sweet Tea said...

Oh Maggie, I know that winter makes blues even "blu-er" - I totally understand. Please see your doctor. life is to short to live it being sad. I've been in that place before and I never want to be there again. HUGS to you.

Sue said...

So glad to hear from you…and I can understand the winter blues. I had them all the time when I lived in Chicago!

I have missed you, and I hope next time you feel free to vent to your blog pals a little. We all need to do it sometimes, and we're here to support each other, right?

Great post, Maggie, and lots of hugs to you.


Sue said...

PS. So glad about Gary's good news!!!

Kathy @ Creative Home Expressions said...

It's good to see your post, Maggie! It was a horrible Winter for so many people this year. I would have bouts of being in a "funk" myself. With each sunny and warmer day, I feel much happier. I always think I have a slight seasonal mood disorder. You may suffer from that, too. Glad to hear your brother is better!

smartcat said...

Welcome back to blogland, Maggie. I'm not a professional but I am pretty sure you have Seasonal Affective Disorder. I've found that having a 'sad lamp' has helped enormously. I use it every morning for about forty-five minutes. I also take St. John's Wort which helps. My point is that help is there.
Don't feel guilty about being depressed when others seem to have it so much worse.
What great news about Gary. And what a beautiful party.
It was 14F. this morning....hope you are a bit warmer.
Take care......*s*

Anonymous said...

Get some longjohns & get out of that house! You had a sterling
case of cabin fever, girl! Been there & done that. Get some people around you once in a while.
I think that movie did you a world of good.
Glad you're back!

Rocky Mountain Woman said...

Sorry you've been down in the dumps girl! I get that way in the winter sometimes also.

You should have let us know so we could all chime in and cheer you up!
Thanks for visiting today and cheering me up.

I will look for Son of God. I enjoyed Nebraska with Bruce Dern, worth seeing if you get the chance.



My name WAS Female, I shit you not! said...

Guilty as well!
MIA from my blog as well for one reason or another.
Winter....if you don't do any Winter sports...bah humbug!
We still have the white stuff on the ground where I live.
Glad to hear Gary is doing well and that birthday party was a real labor of love.
Thanks for sharing with us.

Maggie M said...

Remember you...sweet Maggie how could anyone ever forget you? I am so sorry to hear that you have had a long, blue winter. I am glad to hear that you are feeling better and I hope that you continue to keep feeling better and better.

What wonderful news to hear that Gary has finished his treatments and is doing so well. What a beautiful table and great ideas for his birthday. I know you all must have enjoyed it so very much.

I was thrilled to see a post from you. You are missed very much when you are away.

Sending you lots of love and hugs and lots of nose kisses for sweet Tinkerbell and sweet Billie Sue

JaneT said...

Glad you are back with us. I have SAD and it is real and one of these days I am going to purchase one of those lights that are fake sunlight. Gray days for so long are really bad for those who suffer this SAD stuff.

Hope to see you at the computer again.

Linda said...

It is good to see you! The weather is supposed to be changing for the better, so I hope you are, too!

Linda said...

PS: We've missed you!

Paula said...

Been wondering about you. Sorry you were feeling down. Good to see you here again and glad you've had rain. Take care and see you here again soon.

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Forty Pound Sack said...

Sweet Maggie, so happy you're back. Want to know a secret? I've had the winter blues, too, big time, and haven't been blogging either. I think we may be kindred spirits. If so, maybe now that you're feeling better, I will be, soon, too. Hugs, honey ~

Linda said...

Maggie, great post. I think you have said what man of us have also felt. Spring just seems to bring us all out of hibernation, doesn't it? I have to get back to blogging also. I was gone for a long time, wrote a post in December, promised myself that I would keep up but then........well you know, didn't. You have inspired me again. Have a good week!

La Petite Gallery said...

Maggie, Looks like a beautiful party. Don't feel alone, I too have had a week of depression, stayed in bed, it must be this awful dreary winter,

Thistle Cove Farm said...

Maggie, so glad you're back and don't be so hard on yourself. Having surgery and being depressed is about par for the course. All those meds being pumped into your body makes it dang difficult for your body to recover quickly. Just glad you're back and this winter has been hard on a lot of folks; it's been ruff. Feel free to e-mail me if you want to unload; I'm a good listener.

Bill S. said...

It is soooo good to see you back. Tinkerbell looks like our cat with the long fur and the coloring. Also your brother's birthday table with the cakes displayed on wood it wonderful. I love working with wood and that gave me some ideas.

thanks so much - now get to the doctor and continue to get better.

Delena said...

Missed you so much. There is always so much going on in peoples lifes that sometimes it really is overwhelming. Even though we have had our usual good time in Yuma there has been some real dark days of crap and drama. I understand why you may have not wanted to blog. Glad to hear about your brother getting better.

Bohemian said...

Beating the Blues can really wear a person out because it does take effort to navigate the battlefield of the mind! I do Hope that the warmer weather and having outings with those Beautiful G-Babies in the midst of Nature's Abundant Splendor bouys your Spirits and brings you back to Center to Enjoy Life fully again! Those Bluebonnet Fields just took my breath away!

Blessings from the Ariziona Desert... Dawn... The Bohemian